Karma

Karma may take years, but I am a strong believer in its powers. Stress kills. They call it the silent killer because it is dealt with internally. Others may not be aware of how much the stressed person is suffering. I have always dealt horribly with stress. I take on the stress of anyone around me. It made me lose my hair once. I was  ambitious to the point of being a perfectionist in high school. 

I would work out for 2 hours a day because the apartment complex had a gym that no one used, I would study for hours--writing down the information manually, typing it on the computer, printing it out and then studying it. I would read several books for the "breadth and depth" aspect of information and I would push myself to either win the award, or be in the top of the class. 

I had enough stress to make my hair fall out. As though that was not horrible enough, my white blood count was high enough to where I had to be in treatment. I spoke about showing weaknesses yesterday, and for this reason alone, I learned to show my strength and hide the weaknesses. There are sick people in the world that take pleasure in another's pain. A "friend" used to tease me about my hair. He would call me "baldy" and ask how my chemotherapy was going--I did not have cancer but he found it funny. I recovered. I am healthy now, but I still cannot handle stress.      

I am at times too empathic and this has become dangerous to my health. I start to hyperventilate and I have even fainted several times. I used to wonder why in movies the police or messenger would ask that the receiver of bad news sit down before they receive the information, but I now understand completely. I feel weak when I hear bad news. The thought alone is powerful enough to make me faint. I had visited my friend who came close to death from kidney failure. While I was in the hospital, he used the language that the military doctor used 'almost expired'. Those two words made me faint. The doctors had to come to aid me because I was losing consciousness from the gravity of his condition. I care too much. 

I care about everyone and everything. I have always wanted to be everybody's friend and make the world at peace. War and violence worry me. I have tried to turn off the news. I once read that the news is a series of bad events, I believe that Louise Hay said that, I am not sure, but I concur. I cannot control the situation, but I can try to do my part in making the best of the results. Remember to take care of yourself first. I always try to care for others because it comes naturally to me and I end up neglecting my needs, but that is one lesson and the most powerful lesson of all: karma is powerful and certain. 

Thankfully, I have my hair and I am healthy. The "friend" that once teased my bald spots, he is balding--and he is only in his 20s. Karma may take seconds of decades, but it waits and it will be there. In conclusion, "Isn't it ironic, don't you think?" --Alanis Morrisette.     

Job creation

The unemployment papers: this blog continues. . . I was thinking about how Obama can create jobs. I thought that since we have public libraries, we can also have public gyms. Maybe I suffer from delusions of grandeur, but I find this a great idea. There is an obesity epidemic in the U.S. and this could help target it. Some people cannot afford gyms. Every military base that I have ever been on has a gym--some have several gyms and they are free. Obama will often frequent the gym on the Marine Corps base during his vacations in Hawaii and I think it would be great if every American had access to a free gym. I can anticipate those saying this is Socialism but it is far from it. There are dietary guidelines set forth by the government. They stipulate the amount of meat, grain, etc that people should eat and the government also says we need so many minutes of physical activity a day. The people in the green food movement say that this mandates how we should eat; that argument is logical, in my opinion. A gym would create construction jobs, personal trainers and so forth. It is healthy and the only caveat is that some may become injured due to the equipment, overexertion or another cause. I would propose this to Obama, Congress, and whoever else who supposedly listens. I think that they listen a lot closer during elections. I have written to all of them because without a job, there is not much else to do and the only response that I received did not answer my question. I was upset. I had believed in the democratic system. I eschew politics, religion and other issues in order to make and maintain friends. I know that sounds apathetic but it is not because I chose to instead write directly to those members of Congress and the President, who could make amendments but ignored me. I hope to one day have public gyms become as prevalent as the public libraries. I think that there also has to be some way to compensate the stay-at-home parent. Parents have a very hard job: raising children. I had seen a calculation done of how much a stay-at-home parent would receive annually if he were compensated for his hours at work and it was a substantial amount of money. Granted, it is not a traditional job, or something that is revered but a stay-at-home parent is an asset. I was a latch key kid. My parent was unable to spend time with me because he was a widower with a full-time job in the military. I used to admire those kids that were able to have their parent on the field trip or other events where the parent could attend. I think it is great if a child is able to have the support and time with the parent. If anyone would like to elaborate, please leave a comment. Sorry for always having such anecdotal/stream of consciousness posts. I hope they will become better organized and more logical in the future.